25 Unicorn Street- Friday morning

[throughaphase]

Kitty had a bad habit of overthinking things, and the last couple weeks had given her a lot of material. And after overthinking all through getting ready for today, she decided she should probably address it.

She went downstairs, saying, "So, should we talk?"

[For the husband!]

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[so_hawkward]

"That's never a good thing to hear," Clint said, looking up at her from where he was applying tape to one of his bows. "Unless you want to talk about something good?"

[throughaphase]

"You're not in trouble," she assured him, sitting across from him. "So... When you told Lexi we might have her by next time, were you serious?"

[so_hawkward]

Ooooh yeah they needed to talk about that.

"I was just... she asked if we'd had her for real yet and I just thought... I was kind of teasing, I mean. I know we'll get her eventually, and who knows if the kids will come back next year and... yeah."

[throughaphase]

"So it wasn't a hint or a slip or anything?" Kitty asked. Don't think she wouldn't be filing his reactions away in her brain, either.

[so_hawkward]

"It wasn't a hint. I would never--look, I know parenting is a two-person thing, and making the baby in the first place is a two-person thing, but there's a whole nine-month process in there that's very much a one-person thing and that person isn't me," he said. "I don't want to rush things. We've barely been married for a month. And ultimately, if and when we do the whole kid thing is going to be up to you. I have my opinions but I would never push."

[throughaphase]

"I know you're not a pusher, but I'm not sure I want sole responsibility for deciding something that gives us both some pretty big responsibilities for eighteen years," Kitty admitted. "Like, if you have opinions I so want to hear them."

[so_hawkward]

Clint put the bow down and turned a little so he could face Kitty, giving her his undivided attention. "I want kids someday, but I also worry about what kind of dad I'd be. Every time Lexi shows up, I feel like maybe I'm not screwing anything up, and Cooper and Lila seemed to be fairly well-adjusted too. But I think about how me and Barney grew up and... I just want to make sure I'm better than that, you know?"

[throughaphase]

"You absolutely are," Kitty told him, reaching for his hand. "Not that I'm trying to talk you into anything, but there's zero chance Lexi would grow up the way you did. The fact that you even consider that tells me a lot."

[so_hawkward]

"I know she wouldn't. For one thing, she'll have two of us," Clint said, squeezing her hand. "And you're awesome."

[throughaphase]

"That I am," Kitty smiled. "I admit, I spent all week thinking about this."

[so_hawkward]

"I... probably spent some time thinking about it too. Especially right after I said that to Lexi," Clint said. "I was wondering if I should have kept my mouth shut or something."

[throughaphase]

"Nah. I mean, if we don't have her by then she'll probably call us out," Kitty smiled. "But we probably should check in with each other about this kind of stuff. Especially when everything happened since the last time the subject even came up."

[so_hawkward]

Clint sighed dramatically, shifting closer to Kitty and putting his arm around her. "You mean you want us to talk to each other like normal married people? Ugh, you ask for so much."

[throughaphase]

"I know," she said, snuggling up next to him. "We get through things like alternate universes and space bullets and tracksuits and kids and I still expect us to talk. I'm terrible."